Nothing

Death and darkness
   overwhelm me
Pressed down
   pushed
      suffocated
I sink
   into
      the abyss

Twenty years
   of nothing
Twenty years
   of waste
Everything I held dear
   every goal I had
      every dream
Smashed in pieces

I am nothing --
   No, worse than nothing --
For I have taken the beautiful
    and sullied them
       destroyed them
Everything I have touched
   has failed

The abyss
   suffocates
      pushes
         pressing down
I am overwhelmed
    by death and darkness