I just found out that a friend of mine about my age has a brain tumor. It is already destroying her eyesight, and I have no idea what her life expectancy is. I didn’t want to ask that question when I’d only just found out.
Why does she have a tumor and not I? It’s the kind of thing you never think will happen, right? I’m healthy, my body works fine, life is going to be hunky dory. She’s married with a son; I’m married with three kids. It could just have easily been me.
And the irony is that I’ve felt suicidal many times. God, why do you spare my life?
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Hi Lisa,
This is Greg's sister, Marilyn.
I am sure you remember that my brother had a brain tumor. He accepted the Lord at that time. I remember how he thought it was so marvelous that God made salvation so easy to accept. Even a child, or mentally impaired person, could understand and accept Him. I believe you will see the reason for your friend's brain tumor. But maybe not now or in this lifetime. But we know that our God loves us and only wants the best for us. I will pray for her.
I am so sorry that you are so discouraged right now. All of us have these times. Psalm 40 is one that we all can identify with. "I waited patiently for the Lord and He inclined to me. And heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit. Out of the miry clay. And set my feet upon a rock and established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth. Praise to our God."
Then there is also Proverbs 3:4-5. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths."
I want you to know that we pray for you and your family. We know that you have a heart for serving the Lord, and that is such a wonderful thing.
Love in Jesus,
Marilyn
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